MAY 14, 2020 THURSDAYO Lord, you have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from far away. You search out my path and my lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways. Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts. - from Psalm 139
Dear Church Family,
Prayer is conversation with God. Prayer is being still, open and quiet in God’s presence. God speaks first. God awakens and draws us from distractions, and sometimes with what is distracting and troubling to us. Do you ever utter a quick prayer to God that just happens? It feels spontaneous. It is not speech formed after you have inwardly studied, prepared, and feel ready now to speak with God. It’s just — there.
Prayer is what is always bubbling up from within. The Lord, as the Psalmist posits, already knows you, your thoughts. Whether we realize it or not we are always in conversation with God, even if you think it’s only within yourself. God knows, discerns, searches, is acquainted with our deepest places, tests, sees, guides and leads. If you can be still and not talk so much, you might realize God is in continuous conversation with you, inviting you to present your thoughts, those that seem to make sense and those you’re not sure about. God sees you through the love he has for you. You are safe. You don’t have to be perfect. Showing up and trying is all that is asked.
I notice more so now, in these disrupting days — I am more attentive to an unceasing conversation with God as I walk for morning exercise. Birds chirping – a child and parent riding bikes, a gentle wind, smiling at and receiving a smile from someone I don’t know, or have a clue what’s going on in their life. When I am attentive to God I realize God enjoys with me the goodness in creation, the warmth of a smile, greeting and wave of a hand. When I think of a friend I haven’t heard from lately, or gratitude wells up from a memory and makes me glad, I think of God in conversation with me.
Think of God today as the Psalmist — The Holy and Divine Companion wanting what’s best for you, even more than you do, holding you in compassion and love, knowing and loving you as your Companion, knowing your heart, your mind, your essential goodness, your choices — your darkness and light. That’s what the Psalmist prays on our behalf. Take a few moments today, and savor this ancient wisdom. Then utter that prayer — the only one we need – “Thank you.”May you and those you love, be surrounded this day and each, in God’s unconditional love, Fr. Steve