OCTOBER 6, 2020 TUESDAY
The next day John again was standing with two of his disciples, and as he watched Jesus walk by, he exclaimed, ‘Look, here is the Lamb of God!’ The two disciples heard him say this, and they followed Jesus. When Jesus turned and saw them following, he said to them, ‘What are you looking for?’ They said to him, ‘Rabbi’ (which translated means Teacher), ‘where are you staying?’ He said to them, ‘Come and see.’ They came and saw where he was staying, and they remained with him that day. It was about four o’clock in the afternoon. John 1: 35-39
Dear Church Family,
I pick up from yesterday – what DO you desire? And if you desire a deeper relationship with God, do you know what may be required?
“What are you looking for?” The two disciples who follow Jesus are asking more than where he’s lodging. Something John says awakens a desire to know more about this rabbi — the “Lamb of God.” To stay, here, means “who are you? We desire to know you. They go with and remain with Jesus that day, and become his disciples.
St. Francis de Sales wrote long ago – “Each Christian needs half an hour of prayer each day, except when we are busy…then we need an hour.” It’s not that we doubt God’s existence, or don’t want to know more of God and his love for me — but honestly, prayer can be tedious and boring sometimes. We resist, avoid, forget – try, then realize we aren’t sure how. It’s easier to pray our wants or make our complaints. It’s harder to quiet the soul, be still and let go of yourself into the love of God’s near presence. Let God hold your resistance with you. Keep asking until you begin to realize God’s love envelopes and holds you. You won’t hear a bell go off – see dazzling lights to affirm you’ve connected with God. You might experience something like a soft, warm, relaxing breeze of love overcome you. Some days you feel it. Others you won’t. What DO you desire?
Maybe like the two who follow Jesus, for a reason they can’t fully explain or know at this point, you and God create a relationship that fits you. God will help you do that. God never stops loving you — even if you give up. Sometimes letting go is that opening you need for God to reach you. Desire sharpens through such “growing pains.” When you are ready — God is there, waiting. Think about that for a moment. You are his beloved before you arrived on this planet. You’re his beloved when and after you leave. For me, drives my desire to be in a deepening relationship with the Divine Mystery of Love. Who is God for you – for me? We won’t find out by sitting in the stands. Get up, for he gently calls each of us, when we’re ready — “Come and see.”
Think about what you desire this day.Blessings, and God’s love holding us all, Fr. Steve